بتحبها ولا... بتفكرك بيا؟

Trying to keep up with news of my country is like watching an action thriller that doesn't want to end. I'm getting more and more frustrated everyday with how far I am. I'm getting more and more sick everyday with how people are judging me for voicing out my opinion (that they disagree with) under the pretext that my opinions are being said in indecent manners (because I am constantly criticizing and HARSHLY most of the ex regime members).

I won't get into that now.. all water under the bridge..! (maybe)

I'm so frustrated with how some people seem too scared of change to a point that they cease to believe what is right there in front of their eyes. Those defending Mubarak or Shafik and those who constantly BLAME the protestors for everything that has gone wrong with the country since the start of the revolution.

First... Mubarak drained the country out of everything he could've possibly drained. How can ANYONE feel gratitude towards the man who blessed the escape of Mamdouh Ismail? How can they feel sad for the departure of the president who allowed 40% of his citizens to live below the poverty line?   How could they have believed his pleas to think of him as a father when the very next day he allowed the murder of his "sons & daughters"? I shall quote blogger Sandmonkey when he said "A good father doesnt steal from his kids, doesnt abuse them, doesnt deny them their dreams & aspirations. He sacrifices for them" Surely nothing that Mubarak has ever done.

Second... Shafik was the most incompetent person I have ever heard speak in my life. So what if he built a fancy airport (not to mention that 99% some other less famous engineers came up with the entire plan and he took credit for their work) that doesn't even compare to REAL airports such as Berlin's Tegel, London's Heathrow, New York's JFK or Singapore Chagi... What does this have to do with him becoming Egypt's PM during the most critical time in the history of Egypt since possibly 1952? It pisses me off to be DEAD SURE that the reason of the fascination with Shafik is all superficial reasons such as him being a fellow elitist of his admirers, with his english words, classy suits and snobbish attitude. During the infamous debate with author Alaa El Aswani, Shafik proved to the world he has no freaking clue about ANYTHING that is going on in the country. He was in his seat for an entire month but managed to reach ZERO progress, had ZERO updates and as I can safely say went into the office and acted pretty. Goodness grief!! What happened to people?! How can anyone fail to see that? 

Third, the new broken record blaming protestors to have ruined the country, damaged the economy, created chaos is just down right horrifying. If you ask me.. this is not a simple case of stockholm syndrome or a mass wave of panic attack.. This is the result of what Mubarak's regime has done to Egyptians over the past 30 years. Some people are just blocking the concept of change.. their immune system is aggressively fighting against the idea of getting back ALL their rights. They just want to settle for the least. To prove so.. during the revolution when Mubarak gave his 1st speech they were like "enough.. this is more than we could've hoped for" as he promised to step down in 6 months & not 2 let his son run... Protestors pushed for more & so came Mubarak's second speech... "Enough... what else do you want him to do, the man wants to die in his country" as he delegated his powers to Omar Silly-man & changed the cabinet! Protestors pushed for more & so came Sillyman's speech... "Enough let's leave Tahrir we got what we asked for" as Mubarak stepped down and they became "we" all of a sudden taking credit for efforts they did nothing but oppose. Protestors pushed for more.. Adly, Ezz, Garana, Maghraby, Abo El Eneen, THE MUBARAKS and others are either under investigations for corruption or actually jailed and the constitution will be redrafted... "Enough... you are taking it too far the corrupt people are under trial" but the protestors pushed for even more.. Shafik was removed, elections will be held with national IDs and a new PM chosen by the PROTESTORS IN TAHRIR was assigned the job.. but still we heard the "ENOUGH.. GO HOME.. YOU RUINED THE COUNTRY" and the protestors may god bless them pushed for more and took down STATE SECURITY which has long terrorized ALL OF US and will continue to push till they guarantee that every single demand of theirs in the aim of creating a democratic free safe country is met.

I ask you this.. who is more likely to ruin the country? If we had followed the passive citizens who are only seeing the empty half of the cup asking us to let go of our dreams and not fight for our futures or the protestors who can see the big picture and are fighting 4 the rights of the entire country whether the rest of the Egyptians realize that or not? Isn't everyone going to enjoy freedom of speech, democracy, healthy political lives, safety and equal opportunities of growth or will it be limited to the protestors? 

A friend of mine reminded me of George Orwell's 1984.. I find those people very reminiscent of the people of Oceania.. those who feel the need of a state security or "Thought Police"/"Ministry of Truth"... that has caused nothing but pain and grief to fellow Egyptians.. Those who defend and fight for the regime that has long oppressed their nation such as Mubarak or "Big Brother".

"Never again will you be capable of ordinary human feeling. Everything will be dead inside you. Never again will you be capable of love, or friendship, or joy of living, or laughter, or curiosity, or courage, or integrity. You will be hollow. We shall squeeze you empty and then we shall fill you with ourselves."

George Orwell, 1984.