Prior to January 25th I was a 100% against the revolution. I was one of those who deemed it a suicide mission that is bound to fail. Needless to say after watching the masses flood the streets of Cairo, Suez, Alexandria and other cities chanting the ever famous "Ta3'yeer, 7oreya, 3adala Egtema3eya" (Change, Freedom, Social Equality) I became quite positive that Egyptians are on to something. I was a wee bit more hopeful that maybe... Just maybe and I allowed myself to dream.. that we can do it!
Bravely and persistently my people fought and came through. But now that the fight is over and the smoke has cleared and while the majority have turned their backs thinking we won... It frightens me that I can still see the lingering shadows of darkness refusing to cave in to our will and freedom.
That was merely the first round. Mubarak has stepped down, some of his front men were sacrificed in the process but the system and the corruption manifests beyond we ever assessed or thought. Round two is bound to be more vicious whether we plan to admit that or not.
Tahrir Square is no longer the Utopia we drew it to be. We are no longer one like before. "They" have infiltrated our "ranks" if you may. We keep looking out for violence and midnight crackdowns but for some inexplicable reason I don't see them happening. The defeat if we allow it to take place will come from within. While we are busy bickering about ideologies in some odd power struggle over the square and how it should be... they are getting to learn our weaknesses and creeping deeper within us, taking advantage of signs of internal divisions and lack of trust between us.
Revolutionaries who dedicated themselves to this cause are all honorable men and women... Rather heros. There is no right or wrong here but only different priorities and perspectives. In no way do I doubt anyone's faithfulness to the revolution. But I only doubt our capability and readiness to go through this second round. Not because we're a few, as we're many. Not because we're not dedicated, as we're passionate. But mainly because I'm a firm believer in this saying: "United we stand, Divided we fall."
The longer it takes us to realize that and find it in our hearts to stand together, the more time they get to prey on our vulnerability. It is time to forget all the differences and disagreements and to stop eyeing one another with suspicion. It is time for the revolution to continue...